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i don’t buy the current culture

in the massive cultures
there is a dominant one
I don’t buy it anymore
I did because I learned it
grew up in it
and I chose not
to perpetuate it
as a child
I saw inequity
hypocrisy
and I vowed never
to go down that road
I had some dips
in getting there
my internal process
and still do
the external
ie other people try and
get in the way
of my change
because
people do
they don’t like change
mostly
looking back on the
good red road I have
traveled
I am grateful for
all the learning and growing
and it is never ending
until I take my last breath
y’all can do what
you want
because that is what
you do

peace

social justice how does it become

i don’t see a direct correlation
in any situation that i know
marches
talking groups
of same
or different people
work place
on the street
in the country
in the city
in churches
i do know that
it can happen anywhere
it can happen with peoples
willingness
allotta hurt people out
in the world
and behaviours
are not people
yet some are judged on
this because of a variety
of white man being
i can see some small
movements and change
its always tiny steps
in my experience
i do my local gig
some people do laws
some people do recycle
some people do connect with others different
some people want to grow and change
i have seen people
talk it up constantly
when it comes to ante up
they don’t
i forgive
but i never forget
moving forward

peace

hmm
respect is
it ought to be if not
this country was founded on
a lack of respect
people came here
wanting respect and freedom
and instead disrespected
the people here
as well as the earth animal
and plants
remember women and children
were chattel in that time
so it was the white European
dudes in power
lacking direction
In this lack of respect
people were imported as
commodities to do labor
whatever the white dudes
in control said
I don’t think much has changed
in real life
today
white dudes in control continuing to disrespect
the earth
plants
animals
the women
children
other people who come
to seek refuge
as well as the people who were
here first
and people who
don’t conform to
the white dude norm
its not sustainable
and if they are not concerned
well
they ought to be
because its going to be their
pants on fire someday
peoples and lands are not commodities
to be exploited for
monetary gain
and white dude whims
the masses demand respect

peace

respect

hmm
respect is
it ought to be if not
this country was founded on
a lack of respect
people came here
wanting respect and freedom
and instead disrespected
the people here
as well as the earth
remember women and children
were chattel in that time
so it was the white European
dudes
In this lack of respect
people were imported as
commodities to do labor
whatever the white dudes
in control said
I don’t think much has changed
in real life
today
white dudes in control continuing to disrespect
the earth
the women
children
and other people who come
to seek refuge
as well as the people who were
here first
its not sustainable
and if they are not concerned
well
they ought to be
because its going to be their
pants on fire someday
people and land are not commodities
to be exploited for
monetary gain
and white dude whims
the masses demand respect

peace

first order

now
for me is
not the inquisition
the supposition
or the imposition
its babies
women and children
as sovereign entities
capable of saying
and expressing truthfully
and having their truths
spoken and being heard
it has been the opposite
in culture and society
for millions
but some people think
otherwise
the first order
is not people giving
orders
it is not people
interrogating
it is not about
the dudes
its about everyone else
if you have a family
the dudes say
why would I pay for
you contraception
well
you have a dick
and if you don’t
well someone has to
in the end
and if it is a woman
well
things are changing dudes
In myriad ways
get over you
and check in with yourself

peace

the gif

babies and toddlers are good
at it
push repeat
do it again
it is not attractive
in adults
if I am present
in a moment
I can have an experience
learn from it and move
on
most of the time
I don’t have to do
the gif
push repeat
or have a hiccup
its taken me
a long time to learn that
having come from societal
regurgitation and gif
now when I do encounter
people who do the gif
I have been witnessing
that can respond differently
I don’t really have to
respond in kind
or at all
but if and when
I do
its usually not reactive
anymore
it is more in a space
of being active
and in forward mode
when I first meet people
who do the gif
I get it now
instead of explaining
their crap away
as many women do
I cannot have experiences
without
learning and growing
on many levels
that is what life
is worth to me
getting over the gif
others see it differently
your gif
not mine

peace

the invitation

I was invited to go to church
I haven’t been to church in a long
time
except for a couple recent family
funerals
I am a recovering catholic
and so those experiences
have been triggering for me
I have been to other
churches before
all were with a person
at the head or a leader
and the people following
all white people

so today when I actually was
preparing to go to the new church
I was nervous
I did not know what
to expect
my friend put my mind at ease
and knowing her
I thought it would
be a good experience
it was

it was a small group
no icons or elaborate environment
it was simple
people welcomed me
there was singing
and reading from the bible
yet I did not feel triggered
by the he’s and the him’s
and the use of the word father
because the leaders were all
people in the multicultural congregation
and it was women and men

I did not feel like
I was being talked down to
or lectured to
or belittled
people did not have to be silent
they could and did speak
when moved to do so
and were able to move their bodies
it was a given
there were respected moments of silence
people came up and shared
their stories of faith
and their experiences
of trials and tribulations
it made me cry
maybe a healing of sorts

there was a communion
it was served but not served
people got to pick from a silver platter
then we all waited until everyone
had their bread and juice
and we broke bread together

I am glad I accepted
the invitation today
I learned I can get the message
despite some of the language
because it was delivered
by the many
and not the few

peacee